I didn't go to school today, which means I have to attend class again for 4 more days without skipping at all. I feel guilty skipping but I really had no mood to go today somehow. I didn't sleep too late, but my body felt like as if I never sleep before. I needed to reflect and I know its time to stop skipping school. I went to my grandma house, I felt like a kid again. Running back to somewhere comfortable, holding her hands and it feels good. Someone that will never hurt you but only giving you more concern and love. Sometimes I wish I had someone to bring you back when you're just so lost that you just want to give up easily. But no, so just shut up. Death suddenly seem so close to me, like around me. Its scary but I guess its all part of life and there is more to come. Anyway, I bought Subas Anadan's book! I finally get to see T and A yesterday. Today I saw H! We played monopoly, which make me feel even more like a kid. I want to whine so much. I want God to give me a happier life... After all, nothing is changing.